[veggiepark]

I'd like to talk to you too. I'm in a similiar situation, as i'm 35 and have been masturbating to gay porn for since i was 16 or 17. I never thought anything was wrong with it before, but latley i've been having the feelings i should stop.

My watching porn came to me at a bad time. I was a teenage runaway, addicted to crystal meth. I used to masturbate to porn and visit adult theatres in conjuction with smoking meth. I quit the meth after a few years and eventually stopped going to the adult arcades and what not. Yet i still find myself viewing and masturbating to porn, even after all these years.

While porn has shown me things i might never have thought on my own, and it's also made me realize there's a lot of other gay/bi men that enjoy gay sex. I feel i've watched more than my share of it to know what's going on. Also masturbating to it seems to get me nowhere and a possible drain on my physical and psychological energy.

I'm not really out, though i told my father i thought i was bi. I think my family would be okay with it, though something is holding me back from coming completly out. I think i am headed in that direction though.

If you want to talk privatley i've also let it for forum members to email me direct.