[Avegan]

I've been writing poems to help me get through this. I wrote this one last year when i was first getting to terms with things and blaming myself. It's written as someone else going through it, not me.

Dear love, I write this letter, in tears, before I go
It explains all of my feelings and the things that you should know
It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but I can’t take the pain
I love you dearly honey, so here’s why I’m to blame

I’m sorry I’m not as pretty as the girls that you stare at
And I’m sorry I’m not skinny, but I’m not exactly fat
I’m sorry that you need to look at girls in short skirts
And I’m sorry you can’t understand just how much it hurts

I’m sorry that my body isn’t all that you desire
And I know you won’t tell me the truth, I know that you’re a liar
I’m sorry that my breasts are not like those on the internet
The ones you sit and stare at, while I lie in bed upset

And I’m sorry because I know that I am not enough for you
And I’m sorry that I ever thought that our love could be true
So I leave you now my sweetheart, won’t bother you again
And I promise I’ll stay true and not look at other men

I don’t know where I’m going, but I’m sure I’ll find a way
You’ve made it all too clear that you don’t want me to stay
You’ll be happier without me so I’ve taken all my things
I’ve burnt all of our photographs, and I’ll leave behind my ring

I’ve left your dinner ready, it’s just warming on the side
And I’ve washed all of your clothes, and some sheets I’ve left behind
The spare key is in the bedroom, on the shelf with all your porn
And I will write to you a letter, when our baby is born

I’m sorry i’m not perfect, but I’m all that I can be
And I’m sorry that you have lost all interest in me
I’m sorry it ends like this, but I feel your love has died
So for now my sweet, I will say goodbye.