[dave]

I appreciate all the feedback to my thread. It continues to be a tough ride most of the time.
I tell myself it is just psychological, and I try to keep busy but it is challenging - perhaps time is the only real answer.
I suppose a major factor is my age - At 56 I have had a far longer time to mess myself up that you younger guys - Bless you for becoming aware at younger ages. My P habit never escalated that much but it sure stayed a part of my life for far too many years. Now I am paying the price with a long withdrawl from daily release. I suspect my body actually wants and expects the daily chemical rush. The physical pressure is strong and tends to show up as soon I relax. I am about 48 days P and M clean. Eventually I may return to limited M but for the next good stretch I will hold the course. I want a lifetime of P free living.
I have finally made an SA contact. I live in a small community and it turns out another guy wants to start a group - he has been struggling as well so perhaps we can grow to support each other.
Take care.