[helpme4life]

Hey everybody. I am just so glad that this site is here because if it wasn't I probably would have looked at P. I don't even know how to explain the feeling that I am feeling right now. I don't want to look and then again I do. I have used my computer to look at porn for so long that now just doing normal things on it doesn't feel normal. Isn't that crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was just surfing the web and typed some P site in on the google bar but I didn't hit enter. Instead I came straight here. I am so glad that I didn't. I would have totally felt terrible and all that I have worked for would be gone in one day. I don't want to be on this roller coaster ride with P anymore. I am tired of it. Even when me and my husband try to make love I constantly have those images burned in my mind. I hope one day that I won't see those images anymore. Don't get me wrong it has gotten a lot easier but it is still a struggle. I am thankful for everyday that I don't fall victim to my temptation. I have been P free since Mar 14. I am so happy but I know the battle isn't over. I have to do the same thing that I did yesterday to make sure I don't look at P today. Well these are just my thoughts. Have a great day.