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Dave,

I know of one other member who posts under the name of Tarantula who is fifty. I'm 54 and have been dealing with P addiction to varying degrees since I was an adolescent. Several years ago I told my wife and she was not terribly supportive. Said she felt as if I had been deceiving her all these years. And, of course, I had. I tried to stop, she thought I had and when I made the decision to seek professional help recently we had much the same conflict again. She is better with this now, says she is glad I'm getting help. So far so good.

Hope you are still "sober" so to speak after 27 plus days. I've had ups and downs but am still trying. I have a lot of work to do to change the way I think. One of the best motivators for me is how good I feel when I leave this stuff alone. You'd think that'd be enough to be rid of it once and for all but its stronger than that. My wife doesn't understand why I can't just quit, cold turkey, and never be bothered by it again. Frankly, I really can't understand that either.

Keep at it. Sounds as if you have plenty on your plate without having to deal with PA. Hopefully, everything else will be a bit easier to deal with once you get this under control.