[Dominus]

Hey man, please don't talk about suicide, however much porn you have viewed and thought about doesnt turn you into a bad egg, its just something that you have decided would be a good step to be without. The fact that you want to give it up is great. You mention guys here with beautiful wives, well it strikes me the more deviant is the guy with the beautiful wife who leaves her frustrated in the bedroom alone while he's looking at porn.

For what its worth I have had these deviant type dreams, not of a sexual nature but something else, they would be there usually in that moment when your not quite fully asleep, but not awake, drifting in and out of sleep, and they are so very real.

The beauty of our human minds is that we can rewrite the script unlike any other creature in the known universe. Consider our minds and personalities to be like paths in a field. Pathways get formed by the things we think about and the experiences we have in life, sometimes these paths are well trodden and deeply entrenched, but if we force them to change to a new track through sheer grit and determination the old paths eventually grass over and the new thought path determines who we are now. So next time the overwhelming urge to view porn comes over you, force yourself to walk away and do something else. This also applies to rejecting completely any mental images that pop up in your head when it is within your ability to do so. Its ridiculously hard without a doubt, but that effort of doing so starts the wearing in of a new mental habit of self denial that with sufficient repetition starts to become our natural reaction. Does that make any sense at all???

My recommendation, get rid of absolutely everything in your environment that could possibly tempt you including the computer if it to much of a temptation.

Don't give up my friend, and don't you dare stop posting! we want you to succeed, we are like a body here, if one of the members of the body hurts we all feel it and can't ignore it.