[brokensoul]

I know that what i have beening doing
has hurt my wife
i started to look back at how it started
i didn't want anyone think that i'm putting this on her
i just looked for the easy way out
i have always tried to made things work go around the bumps in the road
it's not that my wife wouldn't that care of me
it became that it started to feel that i was forcing things
as i looked at it she got no please from s@x
the act would give her pain
with the meds she's on even or*l wouldn't please her
she would always please me even when i didn't deserve
her love
i just started to find a cave where i could hide in my mind
maybe get something that i looked for but didn't really need because she was there for me
i just didn't want to really work at it as hard as i should have
(but i am still not sure if i didn't work hard at it i read about all the meds i read about female issues i did press the issue to have her talk to our dr.)
the one thing i am sure of is that i have screwed up
I have been clean for almost 40 days
I really need help getting her back