[dave]

It hits me at the oddest times.
Sometimes I drive down a street and recall where I purchased P and I feel so shitty about myself.
Once I remembered a holiday where I got mad at her over sex ( a P driven expectation ) and I feel bad about myself.
Then I try to remember what I have done today and allow myself little grace. I was in denial then, I was in the numbness of P and I didn't know what I know now. I try to limit the down emotions and use them to energize my good intentions.
I say a little prayer of regret and a big prayer of thanks for what I have.
Hang in there buddy.
I an hour I will officially be into my 4th month P and M free p - only sex with my partner and my integrity is strong - our love is strong and I am grateful.
Take care.
Dave