Thanks for the hug Aeris!
I find i keep asking myself what is it that makes me stay with this man? A few of my friends and family are aware of the situation and they tell me I'm nuts for staying with him, that i deserve so much better, that they would never put up "with that". But if i think about it really, I remember telling a friend almost those exact same words before i knew that my boyfriend was a porn addict and her husband was. I felt so sorry for her; she thought that if she lost weight and became more spontaneous that he would stop viewing porn and become more interested in her. There still together after ten years of marriage. However, it's very easy to tell that she is not "happy" in her life/marriage. I fear that-becoming like her-her emotions sometimes are out of control and she'll snap at people for no reason. I mean are they really worth it? If the situation were flipped-would they stand by us with an addiction of our own equally as painful?