[bodget1974]

really pissed off tonight..my wife has hit me where ity hurts..my gaming. i've no access to my favourite games , one especialy that i play online with a good friend, whuiich for me is a way to relax, get fustration out of me...
i need this gaming time, for me its esential..

i can feel my self getting more fustrated by the second, this you may think sounds childish or pathetic, but its the thing i need .
to relax,

aaarrrrrgrgggghhhhhhhh sorry just feel like i want to scream!

hope you all feel better than me.

sorry for the out burst above, think my situation is affecting me more than i thought, however i realise now its not just about me, my wife has sat me down and dragged the truth kicking and screamiong out of me, i feel so awfull when she asking the questions i don't want to answer..but i just want to cry now iu've heard how i#ve made her feel, and some of the things she has told me have cut very deep,

i realise also now having listened to her that i've damaged her more than i ever thought..

there seems no way back, to be intermut agaion after what she has said...god what have i done, P is evil pure evil, my battle plan needs to work.....