[brokensoul]

just read some new post
also spend a half hour watching
my wife work on a new painting
my mind is jumping around
not on p issues but how our brain takes in the information
and how it's filtered
4 years ago yesterday i fell and totally damaged my left elbow
it took two days for the DR to figure out what he could do if anything
the morning i was to have the operation
the dr said he needed another day to get what it would take to maybe fix the elbow
i had not seen the x-ray so i asked to see it
i can read blue prints and x-rays are just or body blue prints
when i saw it
I told him he didn't have sh*t to work with
we laughed
the next day 7 hours of work he did his best
after the operation (no one told me this till months later they thought i would lose the arm or at best i might regain some use)
well i worked hard rehab
work at home on days that i did do rehab
I can use my arm better than any thought i might
It was my will power
and after getting off the p for over 30 days
my mind as opened up
again i can use this same will power to keep off p
and to try to get back in my wife's trust