today has been hard..
why can't i just say the things i wan't too, to my wife.
i tried a gesture of good will, saying to her to sell the ps3 and she keep the proseeds, as this was how i accessed the P, last time. , but this didn't go how i'd thought.. then at work to day was thinking i'll try to explain my self tonight, but we ended up arguing..i know i've no right to get mad, but i do, she was saying i had to explain myself then and there,shouting ...'
tell me now,now..now or i drop you here, and you walk home' we were in the car. i feel so shit, when she starts saying all the thigs i've done , bringing up stuff from when she was prregnent.. i know i've caused all these feelings in her.....
why is it so hard to say what i did, that it was wrong of me, i don't want to do it again, i hate myself for hurting her so much.....
wish there was a quick fix, that i could say something that she would believe, and know i mean't it...
