Well, I think it's time for an SO to pipe in on this one, and heck it might as well be me. So Hi, I'm s4p and i'm a bisexual woman! Ok now that that's out of the way, I just want to let you guys know that no...i don't know what you're going through...I don't know what it's like to be you...but I do know what it's like to grow up in the bible belt, and be an openly bisexual woman. I do think that it is highly likely that becoming addicted to porn is much easier for a "gay" person in some cases than a "straight" person. Now take me as I'm saying it, this is on a case by case basis. I have many gay male friends, and many lesbian friends, and if you take the Porn out of the addiction and just look at the grand scheme there are more cases of addiction in general in my "gay" circle of friends than my "straight" circle of friends. When these friends sought recovery from their addictions and were asked to search deep and find the things that made them so unhappy that they turned to drugs, alcohol, sex, etc to fill that gap...many had the same responses.
Childhood issues with not fitting in, not being loved, not being accepted, being shunned by family, or by society, self doubt, self hatred, confusion, abuse, neglect...we can all relate to these things no matter which we are, being straight or gay. I guess my reason for posting is to validate your position from the other side of the fence, or in my case walking that tight rope, lol.
I know that the way i was treated over my bisexuality and the family I grew up with...though they always accepted my sexuality they were very dysfunctional...helped lead me down the path to become a codependent person. Co-dependency is an addiction all on it's own, though there is nothing for me to show you to validate it, my addiction is all in my head, literally.
I just want to say, after all my rambling, I'm so glad that you have found the strength to fight this addiction, and a bit more so because of the chance for ridicule that you face being gay and out! I know how hard that can be, just to be openly out and you have my up most respect for your strength.
Peace and love,
Crys
